a glimpse into my chaotic mind

This is my to do list. And my try-to-make-some-kind-of-decision-about-this-issue-soonish list. And think-about-this-later-when-brain-isn't-exploding list. And don't-forget-this list. And it's not everything, either. If only I could fit everything onto an 8.5 x 11 peice of paper. But it was a relief to spill it out onto some paper to give my mind some rest for a while.

indecision

I've been thinking about painting my kitchen cabinets for over two years now. One thing that has been keeping me from painting them is the idea that it will make our apartment harder to sell when it comes time to sell. The other is that I just can't decide what color. I look through magazines and online and see things that I like, but then can't visualize how it will look on MY kitchen. I've also dreamed of putting a hard floor in our dining area (currently, we have carpet under the table. As you can imagine, it's a pain to clean up after infant/toddler and lazy parent (me) and the carpet is in very poor condition) and I don't know what color to put on the floor. So one day I was thinking maybe I could have some fun in photoshop and quickly "paint" my cabinets without any money or time invested in a possibly horrible mistake. As you can see, I got a little carried away. And I'm still not any closer to deciding.

contradiction

For being a "healthy condition" and not a disease, pregnancy sure feels like illness to me.